Tada :)

Look at him. He's so freaking cute :) He looks like a little baby in this! I'm in love with this boy. He's my baby. I think that I've never been more excited to marry him. I absolutely cannot wait.

This blog is dedicated to Jacks :) I love you babe!

P.S. You're my guardian angel :)

FREAKING EXCITED!

For prom :)

Ahh.

I hurt my tummy really bad :(
BUT! I had a pretty great day today :)
I drove around with my mommy all day and then went to dinner at Ariba's with Jackson and my mommy and then I went shopping with my mommy :) I got Dairy Queen and then I came home and Jackson came over :D I took a nice long bath and watched pointless TV!
:)
Great night!

Today!

Is Jackson and I's 11 month! :)

WHOA!

Love life :)

You're the best

and yes, I do regret
How I could let myself let you go.
Oh, now, now the lessons learned.
I touched and I was burned.
Oh I'm thinking you should know.

Oh and by the way,

the little things always matter. Always.

My sorries.

I'm sorry I want my love back.
I'm sorry that I'm afraid that I'm not loved.
And I'm really sorry that by being afraid of losing you, I'm pushing you away.
I love you and I wish that everything would be wonderful again.
I'm sorry for getting mad you a lot. I know it's wrong, I just love you and need your love, too. But I'mm changing, I promise. I'd trade it all in, just to be in your arms. I love you.


You're the person who's always been there for me. Even through the really hard times. I think you honestly kept me alive ha. I love you and I'm sorry for everything that ever happened between us. I'm sorry that I had pushed you away and literally was so rude to you for absolutely no reason. I'm glad we're friends again.


I'm sorry you always have to listen to me complain about him. I'm sorry that me and hdim have problems and I come to you. Sometimes I'm afraid that you are really annoyed with me. I don't want you to be, and I don't anything negative feelings from you!


I'm sorry I hurt you and rejected you so many times. But you have to know why, it's pretty obvious. You aren't the person I thought you were. I don't love you and I don't think I ever did.



I'm sorry you left the state and we grew apart. I hope you keep your promises. If you don't, I'm disappointed in you. I'm sorry for always yelling at you. I love you.


Hey, you're family. But you're a cunt. I'm sorry that you are absolutely and rude person. I'm sorry that I will stick up for myself and I'm sorry you're annoying.


I'm sorry that you're my boss. And I'm sorry you're a bitch and feel that you must order me around instead of just asking me. I'm sorry that you're my family too.


I'm sorry you don't know your three wonderful kids, you dick.


Most of all, I'm sorry that you had to deal with my teenage years. And I'm really sorry that we fight. I hate it, but I love you. I'm sorry that I never really get much time with you anymore. I know I'll regret giving this time away when I'm older. I'll make an effort, I promise. I love you. I'm glad I can call you family.



I'm sorry to everyone I've ever been mean to. It's not you most likely, it's probably something or someone else. But hey, it might even be your fault. Bitch.

Great Song.

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew
Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything
When someone said count your blessings now'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew
:) Pink- Who Knew!

Love it.

OH!

I went to the doctor's today and now I have medicine and I can hear out of both my ears! :D
I miss Jackson and he's right next to me.

Hmm.

Well. I guess things aren't particularly good or bad?

Okay

So my dogs look pretty much like the most adorable thing on this planet. They went to the groomer and the Yorkies look so soft and cute and Tobey looks like his head was the only thing not shaved off. So cute!
I was working until 12 last night but that's okay because I drove to Jackson's house and slept there :)
I coughed for most of the night bu slept really well 10 A.M.- 1 P.M.!

I feel like everything is really good right now. Jackson and I are great. And the people that I normally don't talk to or fight with I'm talking to again. Like how great is that? All the bridges I ever burned are being built back up again.

But I miss two people the most right now. Amber and Calen. I miss Amber all the time because she's busy right now. Which is understandable. And I love her so I miss talking to her,even if I know she can't. And Calen was in my dreams last night. I was talking to someone and I saw him and he ignored me and then word got back to him that I was upset and then he was trying to make it up to me, but I wouldn't let him? I ignored him just like he did to me. Which is dumb of me. But now I am totally thinking about him. I hope he comes back soon because I definitely wouldn't mind seeing him soon.

I also had a dream that I couldn't ever go home again. I had to live in this old Mexican restuarant. I was crying most of the dream because I couldn't see my mom anymore. I remember trying to call her in my dream but the line was disconnected. :( It made me actually really sad. So I was pretty much all over my mom today!

My sister is cunt. Just for your information. She totally ruined my day. She yelled at me for not going to lunch with her. She yelled at me for not wanting to go to JoAnn's with her. And then she came, and when I say came I mean crashed, a special dinner with my mom and Jackson. Which was annoying. Then when I was trying to hang out with my mom, I ended up being forced to go to JoAnn's after all! She's so dumb. I know she just wants to hang out and be cool, but she just tries too hard. Like her getting a piercing on the back of her neck? WHO DOES THAT?! I mean seriously. That's ugly and trashy. Whatever. I'm over it.

In the long run, I love my life! Go me!